Control Freak

Hi there my dear =) how are you ? I know I'm a bit old fashioned for asking that question,despite the fact that we contact each other every day. But I still want to ask because I felt the need to ask, since we're not next to each other.


I know that I've been a brat recently. I know I'm starting to become a little bad tempered but honestly,I'm actually not a bad tempered person.All of these things happen because .... (lets face it) .... I'm a control freak. Maybe you wouldn't consider me as a control freak, But there's thing you don't know about me (or maybe you do,but just don't want to say it out).  


Before I start explaining myself, I would like to apologize to you for all of the things I've been doing to you lately. As in hurting your feelings and so on. I'm truly very sorry :(  I know I've been apologizing to you for the things I've done for a billion times, But I really am sorry. 


So, as you know, Lately I've always wanted you to reply me quick in text messages, sensitive and bad tempered. I kept on thinking to myself, why am I doing all of these stuffs to you? Not only it hurts your feelings, But it actually hurts mine too in some kind of a way. 

When I snapped out of it, I finally found my answers 

I WAS AFRAID TO LOSE YOU

Our distance between each other is so far away (but of course, my heart is close to you). No matter how much faith I have in you, I still have insecurities in losing you. I wanted you to reply me quick because I wanted to know every detail about you. I want to know where are you,who are you with, what are you doing, whats causing you to reply late and so many more! 

I'm sensitive because I'm insecure inside, That's why I would become very angry when you replied slow or said something that I felt offended or when I see GIRLS  on your Facebook or in your phone and so on. 

Honestly, I dislike it a lot when I see you chat with girls. Even if their your friends or relatives. I just want to have you all by myself. You're miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnnneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !!!!!!

I guess loving you has turned me into a control freak and a psycho lunatic.  

So now that you know why I'm acting like how I am acting like these days, These are the explanations towards your curiosity ... I shall learn how to be more open minded .... Anyway , Love you loads :)