Happy 1 year and 1 month anniversary my dearest ♥

My dearest you ... Can you believe it ? Its been a year and a month of us being together. Time has really gone real fast for us. It felt as if it was just yesterday of me being with you. The moment when your lip touches mine and I was then known to be yours and only yours. I never imagined myself being in a relationship with someone whom I love so dearly for so long. Sure, a year doesn't considered as long but for me, it's quite long and special. Because all of my previous relationship's never lasted a year long. 


Now that I know that I've found my true love, I shall continue counting on the days of our relationship =) My friend used to tell me a phrase ... She said "Why bother counting the days that you have in a relationship? It's just a number. Its just the number of days that you've spent with that particular person that you love. If one day you and your partner broke up, It would be depressing when you used that number to know how long your love went. Love stays forever even without you counting. If its true love, you know it'll last forever. If its not, don't take digits to count your love ... Months or years of being together doesn't matter,the love is ... " 


Somehow, its true in a way. I totally agree that love is all that matters in a relationship. But I want to count the days because I want to celebrate every monthsary and anniversary. To let myself know that you're always there to care and love me. Thank you so much for everything. Though you're not a person who's great in surprises or celebrations, but you're a great person in loving me and taking care of me. But of course, sometimes I do expect something out of you. The fact that I'm a girl, I'd still do appreciate it if you'd get more romantic to think of a good celebration and surprises ;) just saying. hehe ♥

Happy 1 year & 1 month Anniversary dearest ♥

I love You ♥

Thank you for your companionship ... I'll never forget you ...

My dear small  and furry little cute friend, You've been a very loyal companion to me, Thank you so much for all of the happy memories. You're very cute and adorable, not to mention how lovable you are. You're the first pet that I've raised all own my own. 

27 NOVEMBER 2011

One of the most devastating day in my life. You left me. Guess I didn't put enough effort to let you live a better life. I'm so sorry I couldn't take good care of you. I don't know whether you know how much tears I've cried for you. I really miss you .... !! When I look at your cage, I can remember the image of your cute little face sleeping. I miss the touch of your fur cuddling me when you're searching for warmth. I miss everything about you. 

I remember every small details about you. I miss kissing your cute little nose. I miss holding your small paws. I miss touching your furry tail. The moment when I saw your little body froze there, I felt my heart as if it's breaking into pieces. I tried to do as many things as I can, Only to seek for any movement or breathing in you. A little movement would at least let me know that you're still there. But sadly, Your body wasn't responding to anything I do and you were expressionless. 

Letting you go was a very big step for me. I really loved you. Though maybe you don't feel like I do, I really do love you. I blame myself for your death. I'm the one who's not treating you good enough. I['m so sorry that I made you go through a painful death. I know you didn't pass away so peacefully. The night when you crawled on my body and neck, was very memorable for me because you never did crawl to my neck to sleep. Its as if you're hugging me goodbye. 

I remember the night before you pass away, Your mouth was chattering. As if you're trying to tell me something. If I knew you were going to pass away the next day, I would've called the emergency pet line to rescue you. But it was too late. 

Now that you're with God, You shall live happily. You'll have more friends up there in Heaven, You'll have enough food and drinks, you'll have enough care and love from the angels. I hope you know that I'll miss you everyday and that I'll remember you forever as my lovely pet. May your soul rest in peace. I love you ... 

From your master who loves you dearly. 

Fake Friends. Its Friendshit, not Friendship.

So there's a group of people whom I know. They're all elder than me, But I feel that they're way more childish than I am. Lets just say I come to know one of their friend's from their group. All this while, I feel that they treat that particular friend of theirs like SHIT. Seriously? Are you guys for real? Like seriously, The only reason why they're ditching this friend is because of one small bad habit, which is being late. Okay, so I know that being late isn't good at all. But lets face it. If you respect that particular friend, you would just accept the fact and go with the flow and not ditching them. Do you know how shitty it is to ditch a friend whom you guys have been years spending time with and all of a sudden you're all being bitchy to him just because of 1 stupid small habit ? My goodness, you guys are soooooo "grown up". Where's the phrase of "true friends accept who you are" ? It doesn't ring a bell in this situation. Like come on ! You guys have been in a GROUP for goodness sakes ... for YEARS !!!! and now it all comes down to ditching one aside? Its not like he doesn't do any actions to join you guys. But you guys in the other way round is waaaaaayyyyy more childish. NONE of you took any ACTIONS to invite him when he's free. Oh don't you dare deny it. OBVIOUSLY, he asked you guys to invite him to any activities BUT none of you took actions. Instead of inviting, he had to call you guys up , one by one , and ask. GOD DAMN IT.

Seriously ? And when you guys felt guilty, you call him like after hours later. WHO IN THE WORLD WOULD WANT TO JOIN YOU GUYS WHEN YOU'RE CALLING JUST BECAUSE YOU FELT GUILTY AND ITS ALREADY ALMOST THE END OF YOUR ACTIVITIES?!

you know what ? screw ya'll ... ya'll just a bunch of shitty ass friends, which comes from fake backgrounds and snobbish attitudes. ESPECIALLY ONE OF THE UGLY LOOKING ASS BASTARD from your group :) Awwwwww would you look at that, My middle finger gets a boner when I think about you guys :D

BYE :D

Control Freak

Hi there my dear =) how are you ? I know I'm a bit old fashioned for asking that question,despite the fact that we contact each other every day. But I still want to ask because I felt the need to ask, since we're not next to each other.


I know that I've been a brat recently. I know I'm starting to become a little bad tempered but honestly,I'm actually not a bad tempered person.All of these things happen because .... (lets face it) .... I'm a control freak. Maybe you wouldn't consider me as a control freak, But there's thing you don't know about me (or maybe you do,but just don't want to say it out).  


Before I start explaining myself, I would like to apologize to you for all of the things I've been doing to you lately. As in hurting your feelings and so on. I'm truly very sorry :(  I know I've been apologizing to you for the things I've done for a billion times, But I really am sorry. 


So, as you know, Lately I've always wanted you to reply me quick in text messages, sensitive and bad tempered. I kept on thinking to myself, why am I doing all of these stuffs to you? Not only it hurts your feelings, But it actually hurts mine too in some kind of a way. 

When I snapped out of it, I finally found my answers 

I WAS AFRAID TO LOSE YOU

Our distance between each other is so far away (but of course, my heart is close to you). No matter how much faith I have in you, I still have insecurities in losing you. I wanted you to reply me quick because I wanted to know every detail about you. I want to know where are you,who are you with, what are you doing, whats causing you to reply late and so many more! 

I'm sensitive because I'm insecure inside, That's why I would become very angry when you replied slow or said something that I felt offended or when I see GIRLS  on your Facebook or in your phone and so on. 

Honestly, I dislike it a lot when I see you chat with girls. Even if their your friends or relatives. I just want to have you all by myself. You're miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnnneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !!!!!!

I guess loving you has turned me into a control freak and a psycho lunatic.  

So now that you know why I'm acting like how I am acting like these days, These are the explanations towards your curiosity ... I shall learn how to be more open minded .... Anyway , Love you loads :)

When you're Far away from me.

I find myself missing you more and more every single day that passes by me as I spent my life here in KL. How I wish you were here, right  here by my side. I miss everything about you. From your hugs to your kisses. From your touch to the sound of your voice. Even though I can hear you when we're talking on the phone, still, I wish you were in front of me talking face to face. Sometimes I do regret making this decision by taking one big step to come to KL for studies. But I had to, Because I have to think about my future and I have to chase my dreams. I do wonder, if you ever got mad at me for choosing this path. If you did, Then I shall apologize to you for being so selfish. But I have to tell you honestly, that I do love you very much from the bottom of my heart :') 

People around me always asked me questions such as "how do I bare with this long distance relationship?" ... I would answer them that as long as we have faith in each other, the love between us would not fade away that easily. Sometimes, my friends tempt to ask me find guys in KL to be my companion. I would reject those idea that they have because I am true to you. Only you could open the doors of my heart, no one else has that key that you're holding. Maybe you don't know this, But I am a very sensitive girl inside. I tend to think a lot when you don't reply my messages. It makes me insecure. I'm afraid to lose you, do you know that ? You're the only man that treats me like a queen.I love the way you love me. 

As I walk on this road alone in KL, I always wish that you were here so that I may hold your hand and smell your scent. I wish that you were here when I'm facing stress and some down moments. I wish you were here, to hold me in my sleep. I wish ...... you were next to me right now :(

My darling, no matter what happens, I promise that I will not fool around with this relationship. I'll appreciate every single thing about you. I'll appreciate every single day of being with you, even though we're miles apart. Sometimes I wonder, do you think about me as much as I think about you when you're back in kk ? sigh ... I really miss you a lot :'(

When it all comes down to one thing, Its all about you ... and the love we have for each other. I will hold on tight in this relationship and as the sun rises or sets, I just wanna tell you ... I Love You Lots Hubby <3 

I want you to know that no matter how far apart we are right now, You're always be the apple of my eye <3